I had my first acupuncture appointment with Butch on Monday. Not much new there. I’ll be seeing him every two weeks until my next surgery in a mere eight weeks.
I saw Layna again yesterday for PT. She said that things are looking good, and I’m allowed to start some physical activity again. She suggests that I exercise at 50% of my MHR for cardio for 30 to 45 minutes. Today, I did 45 minutes on the stationary bike.
For yoga, she suggests I stretch at about 75% of my max range for arm, chest and upper back postures. I have no restrictions on lower body postures.
Tonight, I’m going to yoga at Oncology Rehab with Brianna. It’s a great way to make a gradual transition to the usual studio close to home.
Lately I’ve been thinking about the idea of non attachment, one of the eight limbs of yoga. It’s in my nature to attach to things and ideas. I’m practicing aparigraha, the sanskrit word for non attachment.
I’ve been faced with many opportunities lately to attach to: outcomes, opportunities, possession, abilities. I’m focusing my energy on letting go.
That means I’m letting go of the stranglehold I have on things; so badly wanting things to go my way. Instead I’m trying to do my best to be open to what life has to offer and then letting go of the outcome.
I think that the phrase “let it go” can become misconstrued. It means to release yourself from the strain of feeling like you have control over things which you do not. What it does not mean is to simply forget about it, bury it, deny it, stress over it or hope so deeply that you miss out on the joy of the present.
It’s freeing to do that. Otherwise you become a slave to things which are utterly out of your control.
Let go or be dragged.